9.8.06...its a day need us 2 remember..coz its a day of my 1st convo...1st graduation of Uni...can i consider it a Uni?? i dono...coz lots of ppl told me dat in Foundation don consider a Uni..n my mom oways messed up n says i;m still in lower level n don cal foundation a uni..jus cal it as a studies..which hurt me alots.i dono y...but now i'm in degree...i dono 'll she call it a Uni studies o nt?? i really confuse wif her thinkin sumtymz..mayb she getting old o wat??i really dono...i noe my mom oways been a sandwish between me n my dad...my dad n i wasn't dat good all de tymz...we oways had cold war..n my mom oways b de one 2 tok wif me n my dad...recently she try 2 understand me while workin wif her in de sam office...there she asked me lots bout me n my fren... i wonder y...but i jus tel her all de truth..no hiding...coz we really gt thing 2 hide from her...good things is now she noe who my fren r n she let me hang out wif dem...no tymz limit..jus need cum back hom early...ofcoz when tyms up she 'll cal lah...yesterday she rushed 2 my convo..i was little touch..n oso felt sorry bout it...coz i was arguein wif her on phone b4 she cam..i think its de argue make her cum...it cause her drive 2 de worng building n place...i argue wif her coz i was mad at my dad tokin sumtin bad which hurt me damn lots...so when my mom told me show her de pic i took i jus said "don think it 2 daddy...since i'm makin him so shamelesss all de tym.. its meaningless 4 him 2 look at...since its a shame of him 2 attend such convo...".. its really strange y his co-worker can b free 2 attend but nt him?? his daughter oso sam stage wif me ma..only foundation...her parents n my parents knew each others...coz she's smarter den me n her parents pround of her?? i dono... sum parents jus different i guess...even my fren's parents said nt cumin but dey turn up in de end..but mine only mom...yaya i noe...8least i gt mom attent...i only feel bad y my dad act so... til now i don dare tok mroe wif him..coz i still little upset bout things which had hapen.. i jus little sad y my dad cant b supportive...i nt yet show my dad my scrool which i gt yesterday...i din tel him anytin bout de convo...jus normal HI n "dad its dinner tym" dat all...nth more...i noe i've been bad..im bad coz i was hurt... i din mean it...
yesterday mornin things dosent' turn well...when on de way up 2 my Dewan Undangan Negeri..i was tryin when i told my fren my problem..i was baring nt 2 car...but i cant stop my tears..i was cry-driving...lolz...but den i jus feel much beta afta i speed trough de tool...muahahahz....den when reach there...wejus wait 4 things 2 start since we reach early...but when its tymz 4 me 2 take rob..damn shyt again...my sch 4gt 2 prepare mine...i guess since dey missed my name in de list of invitation so its possible 4 dem 2 miss my name 4 de robe...so dey chin chai get me a extra robe n let me wear it...den i lost my fren..dey were gone alone 4 pic...i jus little hurt how can my fren let me alone when i was in trouble...but i don mind..coz i noe dey were 2 happy 4 de graduation n robe...so when i found my fren we took pic..n gather others around..suddenly finaly gt sms from denis.. i dono y lately i gt lesser sms from him..sms him oso no reply..so hurt u noe??? but his sms did make me feel beta... but in a blur condition..i called him n tok 2 him..n tel him my problem...he asked me y i don invite dem since my parents nt goin...i dono ma..he was awy 2 sum place few days ago...n i don feel lyk lookin 4 him since in 019 de...damn expencieve lah...he oso din look 4 me ma...but its 2 late...coz he's still in cbu leh...how 2 cum?? nvm lo...tok tok tok...den hang off...celeka hee said me "Pu moi" nt pu moi la...jus tokin wif fren ma..only 4 mins leh...he jealous ke?? den hang off phone n continue take pic n hang out wif fren...at dat tym i really can feel if i don join dem...i really 'll been left out sumtymz...i dono..but i can feel it...i dono y...den moment leta my mom called me ask me things...den she decided 2 much since still gt tymz..she was late...but still in tym...hehez...she said i look nice..i dono its real o jus makin me feel beta...den i gt back 2 my group n get ready 4 de convo...its been boring...but nt bad lah..still ok la...feel fine can take a scroll...but jus feel pain its nt enuf...i dono i can take my degree one in 3 years tymz...=)...so convo end...i wanna look 4 my mom but celeka ah pui from swinbure jus want us take group photo...so go lo...afta pic i went out n look 4 my mom...she wanna took pic wif me..so we went in2 de hall n took da pic...i was little sad 2 see her alone...eat alone n drive off alone...its make me feel so pain 2 see dat..i dono y..i jus don lyk 2 see dat...so afta we took de pic..i saw tear in my mom eyes...but she jus ran away from me n said good bye..coz she wanna get back 2 work afta eating...so i jus continue join my fren...i dono y i can left my mom alone dat tymz...now my heart really pain...i dono y i can cry so much when typin dis blog....
afta lunch...at there...yea free lunch..o brunch as i need 2 cal it..coz i did nt eat anytin dat mornin...coz no mood 2 hav anytin...den we went back 2 sch n giv back de robe n take back rm 50 ...den me..ai ni ... n thur went 4 movie...movie name JUst my luck by Linsy Lohan...nt bad...den we jus go back hom...its really funny dat on our way him its so chun its traffic jams tymz..n thur keep on sayin its luck~!!! lolz...i really feel much beta lo...but still feel sick afta cam back home..dono y...i hav flu all de tymz...n fever...don ask..i really dono..most tymz i jus hide my fever...as my flu is so normal til no ppl k bout it...m i goin 2 die soon?? i dono...lolz..
ok la..i need get back 2 my hw ar..noon need pass up de...
tataz...
-mcpooh