if tymz pass + things around us changed = relationshp turn worst,
else tymz pass + things around us changed = relationshp get better;
if misunderstood + keep in heart = relationshp turn worst/more misunderstood,
else misunderdtood + fixed it right away = relationshp get better;
if misunderstood + keep in heart = urself / everyone suffer,
else misunderdtood + fixed it right away = everyone happy;
if misunderstood + bothsides ignore = relationshp turn worst,
else misunderstood + oneside tryin to save = relationshp MAYB get better;
if love sumone + kept secret = dat person 'll nv noe..,
else love sumone + let dem noe = 8least dat person noe ur feelins/stands more chance 2 b wif de person u love...;
if forgiving heart + forgiving feelin = HAPPY LIFE / more frenz,
else unforgivin heart + negative thinking = miserable life / no frenz?;
if kind + helpful + being true to YOU = Friends,
else rude + use You + untrue to You = JERKS/F**KERS/*SOB*;*LOLZZ!*
if happy thinking + happy feelin = HAPPY LIFE,
else sad life + negative thinking = miserable life / SUISIDE;
int life = happy
printf("MISERY LIFE / SUISIDE!");
if u guys gt more ideas about dis if n eles thingy ...jus tel me n i'll add more oo..
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 4:52 午後
its real dat when days passes by...distance and relationship in between 2 person 'll slowly turn plan...less topic 2 crap about...its a painful feelin when dat person was once who k bout u so much..played wif u so much...means so much 2 ya...but coz of sumtin happened n he/she turned so cold 2 ya...very very cold...in de pass when eva he saw ys..he'll b vry happy...but now...weather u on9 o nt he oso don k o mind...jus send a smile 2 ya..n don reply ya 4 minutes...in de pass...if i don reply in minutes he'll gt mad n said makin his disappointed...n sad..n said don wana waste tym waiting on my reply...but y..i owasy wait 4 his reply 4 so long i oso don complain n y he did dat 2 me?y all de tym i gt de patient n y he dont?y m i de one oways wait 4 everytin n everyone..but others jus don hav patient on me?? why?? can i noe dat?i can feel dat now if i don even reply his PM he oso don mind...coz i noe he don even k bout me...in his mind..all he gt is his gf..beloved gf...no more baby imoto of his...last tym is his baby gal...den best fren...den gf...n me?? i dono...no more lyk he used 2 b..no more...so pain..n so hurt...all i wish is a person b wif me...but y no one can b wif me??D left so far..ppl though he's my bf..but we nv on...all de tym i was de one callin him n sms him..y cant he b de one do so?? i noe last tym he did dat..n now is my turn??even on my bday he oso don call me o sms me 2 say happy birtyhday 2 me...i was hurt..but i don mind n don show it on my face...coz i don wan my fren 2 gt sad over me..since itsa happy nite4 all of us...i noe..in de end i gt him n he said dat 2 me..but...sound nt sincere de...izzit so shy n hard 2 tel me sentance lyk dat? he still gt feelin on me?? i hope i can noe it clearly...n nt lyk now..keep on gueesing his feelins n thinkin...i really miss D...n wondering wat he's doin...but all these r useless...
its realy bored here...cant watch de anime i dl oso..coz sumtin worng wif my sound system...wanna watch TV oso cant...coz my CB n damn rude sis rampas de remode from me jus now..i was lyk" where do dis fukin kid cam from??" CB la...ppl holdin oso rampas from ppl....FUK FUK FUK...damn fukin kid...i hope i can slap her..but i jus don k much..coz i'm tired liao...CB ar..i hope she gt her lesson soon...i don wanna say much bout her..coz she been spoilt by de sam fukin old man...she rampas de remote den she don watch de TV afta all..she jus readin de damn newspaper...PUI la..budak lyk dis...CB punya ppl in my house...lyk father lyk daughter ar..damn real...both of dem really sam de...sam fukin ppl...PUI~!!!!
sumtymz i really think..i mpve out from hom is really de sam stayin at hom...u see hor..2 meals a day i need 2 look 4 myself...if i move out..only 3 meals i need look 4 myself...den hor..at home almost everytin wan me do..i move out oso sam bah...i moev out oso no ppl yell at me..rampas things wif me...no ppl scold..no ppl throw my things...no ppl use my things wifout asking...everytin on my own...go out late late oso no ppl scold...been kill oso no ppl k...nice huh? lolz..
ok la...feel so sien liao...stop liao...
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 11:51 午前
Yesterday was a wonderful day..4 many years i din enjoy my bday so much n b so happy liao...really need 2 thanks 2 my Buddies n frenz who celebrated my bday 4 me..=')...
from here...i wanna thanks to...
For clebrating a bday dinner 4 me..=')...thanks so much oo...thanks 4 de presents too Ai ni n Ic...i really lov dem..lolz...Thansk 4 ai ni's lemon chicken n ic's bandana n pooh tape...dey r really nice n cute..lolz...oh ya..n oso ai ni's pencilbox wif my name on it..lolz... thanks u guys so much ooo..i really suprice n touched...=')..
me oso wanna thanks so much fren who had wished me Happy birthday from many ways...MSN ar..called me..n sms me..=')..oh ya..n oso frenzter testi oo...lolz...
kon wei hon..
i think still gt more but i can recall all of dem..sorry ar..
Han Perng ko ko...
Sim Mui CHen mummy...lolz..
Ayuki ko ko...
Jonathan ti ti..
Tiffany @ Mui chen...
Jason ko ko..
Thanks 2 my cuzies in Aus posted me a bday card..hehehz...
Thanks 2 kokou n uncle john made me a special pic 4 my bday de..hehehz..i lov dem so much..thanks oo..
Thanks u all so much 4 a wonderful bday...eventhough sumtin bad had happened 2 my family..hehehz..but i'm glad i had u all..really thanks so so so so so so much..=')...*bows*....=')
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 11:15 午前
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENNIE! :)Wednesday, Sep 27 2006, 04:22:56 PM
Yeah! I hopefully that you enjoy a wonderful day in "YOSHI ISLAND"! :DBut remember, don't fall trap into Baby Koopa's Castle or else he'll come get you lol.
I hope you can make it, and don't forget to find me a Star from the Sky! :P
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENNIE! MAY YOUR WISH COME TRUE :) ;)
Adobe Illustrator CS2 & Adobe Photoshop CS2 Illustrator & Designed by Danny KojimaTo: Wennie Tan.
aaaaawwwww.....thanks kokou so muchie...hehehz....dats wat kokou post in zorpia..=')...
kou...thanks so much oo..i lov it so much ~!! hehehz...
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 8:32 午後
ai..comp still nt back ar...so early cum sch n do lo..hehehz...now wanna clear mind so blog n chat little....so mcuh 2 do but no mood 2 do..dono y..i should hav moodle..mayb tired lo...lolz...last nite din sleep well..n sleep kinda late...coz tok on phone wif akuyi ko ko...until almost 12 le..lolz...den dono y mayb think 2 much knt sleep lo...hehehz...
mornin gt good things happen le...toked wif D...kinda long..but meaningful tok lo...so don feel bad f it...but his feelin towards me i really dono lo...but i wish we both can work out as i oways wish..hehehz...
last nite went KFC wif frenz...so long din tok 2 each others so long n so much..in between few of us la...coz lots of things stoped dat ma..so i cant say much...i feel grateful gt dis chance 2 noe so much lo..n understand more den i noe..hehez....
k..gtg n continue my work lo....
D..i missed ya..real de...dats all i can says...=P...
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 12:31 午後
lately i don on9 so much..coz of my corrputed comp...so many things cant do...ai..damn la...i dono can do wat Chong gav me o nt...assignment oso killin me...dis week due webpage but i only done little..dono enuf tym 2 do dem all o nt...seems 2 b i need 2 work more den 8 pages since my tings so much le...
em..things around me goes wells la...only sick all de tymz...i makin myself sick de..nt others reason...i really missed D n hoped D was wif me..but all of dem r only dreams n fantasies...dono when can see him again...only things can is SMS n try keep in touch wif him...dats all i can says...bout de net bf...em...things get along well i think...jus tread him as fren lo...nth much i can do...i only scare when i gt a real bf..how can i explain 2 him n can stop him from thinkin wanna doe...dats my only fear...lots of ppl tel me quickly solve dis pro since i had no feelin on him..yea its real...i hav more feelins on D...coz D is de special one...sumtymz i really makin myself sick jus 2 make attention from D...but he don seems givin much attention...lolz...really fun trickin him sumtymz...more laughter n smiles when i tok wif him...but all i can says is 'May my wish cum true...." i noe lots of my dream take long long tym 2 cum true...i vry scare in many things...i cant say dem out...hehehz...
days passes by...n my flu jus don stop n cure...fever in me don cool down...my family don don see i;m sick n often scolded me...i noe dey oso sick...but y can lyk dis...dey only can gt sick n i cant de har?? damn it...i feel lyk away from home dis few days..feel stress at home...no comp really wosten my days at home..so many things changed around me...many things jus sickin me up....all i wish is a place 2 hide n cool down...but i noe i need 2 face all de chanllanges...dats wat God wan me 2 face rite?? o nt i dono..lolz..all i can do is stay strong...n good...n wish 4 my dreams n hope 2 cum true...wif all de efforts n hope...i MUST go on...dats all i can says...
k....had 2 stop liao..class 'll end in 20 mins...wanna do others things...
gal wif problems,
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 1:03 午後
D....i think now u'r on de way 2 Kapit le...y go so far o?? y go there look 4 job o?? aiyo...
y cant u stay in kch leh?? i noe so many things happen..but...ai...nvm..u hav ur own freedom..i don control u...
missed ya so much now...mind full wif problems...but dono how..ok i listen 2 ya..i don think 2 much..but wifout ya i 'll think even more de...
how can i turn myself in dis kind of big shyt hor? lolz..i really dono...many things jus happen lyk dis...jus my luck?? yea...sam lyk de movie..lolz..but i don wish 2 kiss a guy n change my luck la...lolz...
hope i can see ya soon..hope my bday can b spend wif ya..hope i can celebrate ur bday wif ya...n hope things 'll turn well soon...=)...
i wish u good luck in ur job searching...
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 3:18 午後
D...thanks 4 de happy drink u spent wif me jus now..durin noon...n thanks 4 letting me noe dat u nt goin back yet...n thanks 4 callin me..=')...
D..i gt sumtin wanna tel ya....i needed ur help..i smsed ya 4 help but i guess u had fell a sleep so u din hear my sms ...now i had made de decision...hope u don think 2 much bout it k??i still lyk u..n hope gt chance wif ya...but things don seems lyk work out nice...
my bday wish still sam..which is hopping can spend my bday wif ya...but i nt sure where r ya by den...=)...nvm..jus a wish..hehehz...
God..plz bless D..he need more luck n bless from me...God..plz save D from all de bad luck happen on him...
Thanks God 4 letting me slove my problem..n tym spend wif D...=')...
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 5:57 午前
Happy Birthday o~!!!
Wish u Happy Everyday..;)...
Lov ya muchie~!!!
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posted by Kenji Koyama @ 9:36 午後
no offence on dis topic k? really no other meaning de.... i wondering y me n Vincent oways can discuss about dis topic n exhcnaging though how n wat chirstian done 2 ppl around us...yea i admit sumtym i really pissed off wif wat sum christian did n critize bout us who r non christian...only part of dem la..i din mean all k?? coz i oso gt lots of christian fren who are good n nice de... but sum who i nt so close o i dono jus makin me think dey r bad...God..i'm sorry 4 doin dis..i jus wanna spilt my words...
i wonderin how can dey think dat God born dem...jus wonderin..nt our parents born us 2 de world..n God created us?
y dey oways force ppl 2 join their church? i eva heard 2 church ppl fought over bringin de sam person in2 their church...ey..aren't God is wif us anywhere we go?? y lyk dis o?? jus tryin 2 b savior ma..sam oso saving ppl 2 Heaven n sam way..y need 2 fight o?strange le...all sam servin God le...rite?
y dey need critize others religions? all oso sam God ma..protecting n teach us good things...y saying praying on de chinese God is praying ghost le?? These oso our God ma..we belive their exsistance ma...y saying God prosession is bad?? sama Tuhan bah..aiduh....
i dono i eva told u bout one of my story which make me so pissed of n thinkin of goin 2 chuch 4 a long tym since dat incident...i wonder how can she said church ppl r good since she's a bad christian...she called me n scolded me...n being so rucde 2 me..i been respectful 2 her..n she getting more n more violet n rude 2 me..nt i don wanna respect her as my fren's mom......y she can say me bad since she dono me well?? how can she said i'm teachin her daughter bad since she dono anytin about her daughter...how can she tel me church ppl 'll teach her daughter good n me teach her daughter bad since she dono anytin...how can she change her mind so fast?? how can she scold me since my parents scold me in dat way?? she had no rites 2 teach me o scold me since she dono me...she's nt my family member...futher more she dono me..he only heard me from phone..i noe dis incident happened so long liao y i still mad?? i mad coz i feel its unfair n bad 2 think dat she's good n i'm bad since she dono anytin...n she's a CHRISTIAN n how can she think lyk dis???she still says her daughter went 2 church 8least she'll mix up wif good ppl..oh..i i don mind u said me bad..i don..but plz la..i tryin 2 respect u old women n how can u bully an innocent kid??? on de sam tymz i face so many problems in my life...don worry i had overcum dat hard tymz... but i had made up a mind of nt caring so much things around me...wat had happen 2 frenz i jus help 2 slove dat fren's problem but nt b middle person o oways b wif him/her ...i wont k so much liao..coz now sch things getting bzier...n all de tymz i'm de one been blame if anytin happen...i'll tel u guys think urself but nt givin opinions...not anymore...so dat anytin happen i wont gt blame...nv eva again..if wanna blame me den think urself wat had i done..if u really continue blame den fine 2 me..coz u r de one creating sins..nt me..i don k liao...don blame 4 sumtin..i;m jus growin up n mind my own business...nt being bz body...don wanna get blame again...own problem 'fan' enuf liao..still go n k bout others..den still gt blame u think vry song ar???
ok ok..in conclusion gt opinion jus giv comments...i wont say anytin much bout dis..=P..
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 11:07 午前
long tym din blog here liao hor...lolz..yealo....lz open here ma..oways use frenzter ezier...here oso no ppl see leh...=P...muahahhaz....
oh ya....4gt add my graduation de protable album here hor...'ll add when go back oo..now at lab...kinda bored...havin Database class....seem lyk only 30% of ppl listenin le..me ar...don marah lah..'ll study alone de..=P...
jus now met ai ni n thur...den i found he gt MS Visual n database disc...so borrow from him lo..kakkaz...no need go n buy liao...2moro mayb afta class o b4 class me 'll go post kokou's present liao...finally gt enuf $$...hope RM 50 enuf la..no box o wat...jus package...coz nt much things bah..jus little...so hope enuf la...hehehz...
noe wat?? yesterday i met Afado on9...now i jus tread him as fren la...nth much liao..coz i said b4 i don hate ppl..so sam i don hate him even he cheated on me... i was hurt but i did nt get mad...as i did on others...he asked me 2 hate him n don k bout him..but how can i?? coz dats nt me....he oso said he hate himself 4 doin dat...but NOMB wor..coz he's de one do it..so NOMB bah...he's glad dat we still can b fren...4 my words...we still remain frenz coz i don wanna think so much n k so much...so jus keep him as frenz...dats all..nth much...den dono wat lead him 2 think even deeper...he want me n his secret lover...HOW CAN??? ofcoz i wont agree..coz i lost feelins on him...n i don wanna b wif him since he gt family liao...i told him i don wanna ruin his family...he said he hope he can lov me...if he wan can la...b my kai papa...lolz...ofcoz bah..papa can lov gal gal de mah..=P...lolz...he oso said wanna b my secret fren from kch...wat secret lah...b frens enuf liao la..still secret...so scare de wife cari a?? he out of freedome 2 hav fren meh?? coz he lov me o wat?? so i said b frenz enuf no need so secretive...dats all...i don remember how much i been hurt o anytin much bout him...coz i've been tryin 2 4gt him all dis tymz...y cant he do de sam?? y he need more tymz since he gt his own family n me most tymz i'm alone facing all dis pains...strange huh?? oh ya..me oso gt ask y he fell on me..u noe wat de answer??? its kinda lame n i feel strange bout it..he said he fell on me coz i;m 2 kind...dats de reason...but i did nt do anytin 2 him...when he called i jus "mmmm..." "ya..." dats alll ...wat kind leh me oso dono...i look nice?? i don think so...if i look nice den y until now i cant gt a bf?? lolz...rite??? sumtymz i really hope i can b de evil person but i cant...dono y...hope he can 4gt me lo...dats all i can says..i don hope i'm de reason of makin his family apart...i don wish things'll blame on me again...dats wat i don wanna happen..me de one cause ppl's family o relation apart...wonder y it been happened on me a few tymz hor...all i did is nth den i gt de blame...ai...life n luck...lolz...
D....Mr D...lolz...yesterday evenin he suddenly called me...i mean when i was goin out wif my family...he called...OMG...de whole day din sms den called me leh...kinda happy...only a few min oso ok la..beta den nth rite?? den play sms lo...i think he sleep earlier den me...dats y play until 11 sumtin no reply le..lolz..so piggy lah him...sure he had a bz day...hope things 'll happen well on us la..dats all i can hope...oledi thinkin how 2 help him celebrate bday le..lolz..i noe still gt 20++ days 2 go...but planin only bah..=P..mayb gt changes le...
ok la..stop le...wanna see wat ah sir teaching liao...'ll blog when free..;)..tatatz...
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 12:01 午後
9.8.06...its a day need us 2 remember..coz its a day of my 1st convo...1st graduation of Uni...can i consider it a Uni?? i dono...coz lots of ppl told me dat in Foundation don consider a Uni..n my mom oways messed up n says i;m still in lower level n don cal foundation a uni..jus cal it as a studies..which hurt me alots.i dono y...but now i'm in degree...i dono 'll she call it a Uni studies o nt?? i really confuse wif her thinkin sumtymz..mayb she getting old o wat??i really dono...i noe my mom oways been a sandwish between me n my dad...my dad n i wasn't dat good all de tymz...we oways had cold war..n my mom oways b de one 2 tok wif me n my dad...recently she try 2 understand me while workin wif her in de sam office...there she asked me lots bout me n my fren... i wonder y...but i jus tel her all de truth..no hiding...coz we really gt thing 2 hide from her...good things is now she noe who my fren r n she let me hang out wif dem...no tymz limit..jus need cum back hom early...ofcoz when tyms up she 'll cal lah...yesterday she rushed 2 my convo..i was little touch..n oso felt sorry bout it...coz i was arguein wif her on phone b4 she cam..i think its de argue make her cum...it cause her drive 2 de worng building n place...i argue wif her coz i was mad at my dad tokin sumtin bad which hurt me damn lots...so when my mom told me show her de pic i took i jus said "don think it 2 daddy...since i'm makin him so shamelesss all de tym.. its meaningless 4 him 2 look at...since its a shame of him 2 attend such convo...".. its really strange y his co-worker can b free 2 attend but nt him?? his daughter oso sam stage wif me ma..only foundation...her parents n my parents knew each others...coz she's smarter den me n her parents pround of her?? i dono... sum parents jus different i guess...even my fren's parents said nt cumin but dey turn up in de end..but mine only mom...yaya i noe...8least i gt mom attent...i only feel bad y my dad act so... til now i don dare tok mroe wif him..coz i still little upset bout things which had hapen.. i jus little sad y my dad cant b supportive...i nt yet show my dad my scrool which i gt yesterday...i din tel him anytin bout de convo...jus normal HI n "dad its dinner tym" dat all...nth more...i noe i've been bad..im bad coz i was hurt... i din mean it...
yesterday mornin things dosent' turn well...when on de way up 2 my Dewan Undangan Negeri..i was tryin when i told my fren my problem..i was baring nt 2 car...but i cant stop my tears..i was cry-driving...lolz...but den i jus feel much beta afta i speed trough de tool...muahahahz....den when reach there...wejus wait 4 things 2 start since we reach early...but when its tymz 4 me 2 take rob..damn shyt again...my sch 4gt 2 prepare mine...i guess since dey missed my name in de list of invitation so its possible 4 dem 2 miss my name 4 de robe...so dey chin chai get me a extra robe n let me wear it...den i lost my fren..dey were gone alone 4 pic...i jus little hurt how can my fren let me alone when i was in trouble...but i don mind..coz i noe dey were 2 happy 4 de graduation n robe...so when i found my fren we took pic..n gather others around..suddenly finaly gt sms from denis.. i dono y lately i gt lesser sms from him..sms him oso no reply..so hurt u noe??? but his sms did make me feel beta... but in a blur condition..i called him n tok 2 him..n tel him my problem...he asked me y i don invite dem since my parents nt goin...i dono ma..he was awy 2 sum place few days ago...n i don feel lyk lookin 4 him since in 019 de...damn expencieve lah...he oso din look 4 me ma...but its 2 late...coz he's still in cbu leh...how 2 cum?? nvm lo...tok tok tok...den hang off...celeka hee said me "Pu moi" nt pu moi la...jus tokin wif fren ma..only 4 mins leh...he jealous ke?? den hang off phone n continue take pic n hang out wif fren...at dat tym i really can feel if i don join dem...i really 'll been left out sumtymz...i dono..but i can feel it...i dono y...den moment leta my mom called me ask me things...den she decided 2 much since still gt tymz..she was late...but still in tym...hehez...she said i look nice..i dono its real o jus makin me feel beta...den i gt back 2 my group n get ready 4 de convo...its been boring...but nt bad lah..still ok la...feel fine can take a scroll...but jus feel pain its nt enuf...i dono i can take my degree one in 3 years tymz...=)...so convo end...i wanna look 4 my mom but celeka ah pui from swinbure jus want us take group photo...so go lo...afta pic i went out n look 4 my mom...she wanna took pic wif me..so we went in2 de hall n took da pic...i was little sad 2 see her alone...eat alone n drive off alone...its make me feel so pain 2 see dat..i dono y..i jus don lyk 2 see dat...so afta we took de pic..i saw tear in my mom eyes...but she jus ran away from me n said good bye..coz she wanna get back 2 work afta eating...so i jus continue join my fren...i dono y i can left my mom alone dat tymz...now my heart really pain...i dono y i can cry so much when typin dis blog....
afta lunch...at there...yea free lunch..o brunch as i need 2 cal it..coz i did nt eat anytin dat mornin...coz no mood 2 hav anytin...den we went back 2 sch n giv back de robe n take back rm 50 ...den me..ai ni ... n thur went 4 movie...movie name JUst my luck by Linsy Lohan...nt bad...den we jus go back hom...its really funny dat on our way him its so chun its traffic jams tymz..n thur keep on sayin its luck~!!! lolz...i really feel much beta lo...but still feel sick afta cam back home..dono y...i hav flu all de tymz...n fever...don ask..i really dono..most tymz i jus hide my fever...as my flu is so normal til no ppl k bout it...m i goin 2 die soon?? i dono...lolz..
ok la..i need get back 2 my hw ar..noon need pass up de...
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 9:00 午前
em.... kinda sad here...coz i was hurt by my dad's words...i belive most of my fren oso feel hurt dat when dey heard their parents nt attending their graduation...but if my dad said he's bz 2 attend i wont mind coz i understand...but he said sumtin really hurt me...he said, " only foundation graduate, nt degree so no need 2 go..." damn..i oledi asked him in a good way..ask him wanna attend o nt..he answer 2 me lyk dis...its really hurt u noe?? it sound lyk i really useless u noe?? i feel lyk i'm a piece a junk...who only can spend my family money n only passed foundation...yea only foundation..buts its so tough 4 me...i face so much problem n so much tym 2 cover passed it... it mayb sound i really useless...but but...i jus wanna make myself useful n prove i can...but now i had pass a hard level...y don he feel proud of it?? wat 'll he do if i ignore him when i goin 2 his graduation... i noe he's smart..but his damn smart ass gen did nt pass 2 me...n now i'm so dumb wat can he do??...sorry i jus feel so much pain as i cant face de truth.. anyway i'll do my best in degree lo...
bout degree..lolz...jus start 2 days..but really funny lo...Multimedia is realy a cold sub in my sch lah..mayb its new... mayb my sch student jus damn good n interested in engineering n business...eh comp oso damn nice leh y only 10% of ppl take multimedia wor... aiduh.. my 1st class(yestrday) was User Experience in IT...alamak...so shock see so many senior leh...den afta intro..i found out most of dem were 3th sem student..den 4 master student...den only 3/4 student in 1st sem de..ai duh...y oo?? our of 29 of us in dat lab leh...den dis mornin de,Issue in IT, lagi funny...5 of us in a class leh...aiyo..only 5 ar...lolz...only me n christina de 1st sem student..den others r 3th sem de eh...alamak...y met all big big sis n bro de...lolz...next 2 sub i dono who 'll i met..lolz...
ok la..gtg n rest,...feel sick here..tataz...enjoy 2moro's graduation frenz...
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 9:08 午後
2moro i i hav new stage again...new changes in my life..nt marry lah..lolz..its from foundation to degree le...ai yo..so scare lah...new life again..new fren in my course again...lolz...yea none of my gang of frens joinin multimedia (software development)...yea me de only alien again..lolz..but i feel ok bout it..coz i'l following my own dreamz...i'm doin wat i want n its my choice...ehhehz...i willing bah..n oso my fren n i in sam building leh..worry wat wor?? lolz... only thing i worry is parkin leh..damn sch parkin been close 4 contrustion liao...ai duh..need walk leh...but nvm..kekekz..coz can exercise n keep fit liao..lolz..wow...hope i can slim down by dat..lolz..coz i really wanna slim down eh...dono y..lolz..gt reason oso cant tel here..lolz...now i only wanna upgrade my comp b4 sum project start in sch...n hav de best performance 2 help me wif my academy..hehez...kou..its tym i can learn sumtin i lov n make u proud...hehez..
wed is my graduation day lo...em....jus now went 4 de rehersel...nt bad lah...vey funnny...but fun oso..lolz...we were cheering 4 fren who walk up on stage 4 de pratice bout den...i nv noe dat my fren oso lyk kacau me too..lolz..most of my fren walk up stage only me de one n sum close fren applause n cheer...but b4 me walk up still gt a few close fren but no ppl cheer 4 dem..until i went up my fren cheer 4 me n kacau me..lolz..OMG... its really revenge afta wat i done 2 dem..lolz..nvm nvm..i enjoy it sumtymz dat as long u ppl happy ma..kekekz... i saw sum middle age uncle cam 4 de rehersal...em.. i was wondering y r dey there...mayb dey r lect hor...kekekz.....den suddenly dey join de diploma student group...wow...i jus relise dat dis uncle r wonderful...dey can hav part tym studies n work at de sam tymz..i ws little shock 2 see a uncle wif almost whole head white hair still go n take de scrool leh..dono wat sub dey take hor,,nvm wed we'll noe..kekekz...
ok la..wish me good luck on da days cumin..hehehz..gtg n type mail ..hehehz..tatatz...99..n good luck 2 all frenz in everytin..hehez...n congrates 2 all who had pass n goin 2 degree de...de one fail jus keep on add oil lo..me oso sam ma..hehez...
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 9:34 午後
em....yesterday...31 of july...me n me fren went 2 Damai Beach resort...me...thur..ai ni...hee..ic...ch...wensy...ls...n a new net fren name Jack..lolz..its funny dat we ment 2 hav fren around age of 25/6 de...lolz..lyk b4 dis is Susan...now we bcam vry good fren....n yesterday was Jack who joined us..lolz...da day started lyk dis.....me woke around 7...den hav shower...den gt ready 2 ai ni's house 2 make sandwish n sushi...OMG...ai ni can make sandwish...n me can make sushi..lolz..oii ofcoz homemade de lah..lolz...but da sushi nt so successful lah..coz 1st tym i made myself..n de rice i din cook well..lolz..nvm nvm..i'll do it beta next tymz..kekekz...den sum1 no need say me dat i'll hunger my hubby 2 death liao..kakakz... bz makin until 11> jus done ar...but lucky ic gt cum n help around 9/10 la...so littel faster lo...lolz...den thur picked others fren 2 join me at ai ni's place around 11 as we nt yet finsih doin my sushi...den ai ni n ic went 2 sch 2 borrow books...pick jack..n send sum sandwish n sushi 2 Susan...den we leave aini's place around 12 n head 2 de Damai beach....kekekez....ofcoz half way me refill petrol n buy sum drinks n junk food up...oh ya....on de way up hor...b4 we reach de mall..my car temperature kinda high..i was freakin out...when i saw it..den i was quiet afta i filled my oil tank...den jack sence i was worried den he jus kept quiet...when we reach da mall...i open my car's boot n check it..lolz...OMG...da water fillter there almost half lah de water...so i went in2 de mall n buy mineral water n fill it...n oso bought sum drink n junk food n candy..kekekz...den went back car n fill de water...Thank God...afta fillin de water da temperature turn back normal...lolz...so happy lah...so on de way up i jus speed lyk hell up...lolz...jus 80/90 lah..lolz...den half way i jus knew i lost my fren ic who was behind me...den i called dem but dey noe de way le..so no k..jus VROOOOOOOMMMMMMM~~~ up up...kakkkaz....so long din drive so fast liao....enjoy so much...but i noe la..don worry..lolz...i was de only gal in de car...den 2 guy in my car...hee n Jack...other was in thur's car lo...den we reach dat place around 1...n ic dem reach minutes afta us...hehehz...den we went in2 de room n play Uno n eat da food...i cant belive playin uno can play until almost 2 hours de...jus one around leh...lolz...but vry fun la...da one who end can sleep lo...but still in de end Jack lose..lolz...so afta dat we went out...ai ni n de guys went 2 da sea n play lo..other went 2 walk walk..as i start tokin on phone wif Denis since in room...n tok vry long so my fren left me alone n tok wif him...we toked more den 40 mins on phone..lolz..1st tym eh..lolz...so..afta tokin i jus enjoy de beach breeze...n da sun set..hehehz...its fun 2 see how my fren play..hehehz...den its tymz up..i bring Jask back 2 room n take his things...but ai ni want me 2 stay n took sum pic..so jus stay n took sum pic b4 we left..kekez...don worry..soon i'll post pic here de...hehehz...so...afta a while me n Jack leave there...n we went 2 Day Dream n hav dinner...he was wonderin y i din eat much..lolz..eh i ate so much in da room so i don feel eatin more anymore..n me oso eat less de...lolz...me n Jack tok lots..n i knew y he had less fren..understand de la..heehhz....everyone gt their own living style...n we can choose o do it wif our own way...hehehz....now i'm gald 2 see dat frenship in betweens us goin back again...me vry gald n grateful..=')nice 2 see things can n lyk b4..but still lose members...i don wanna say who...but we'll noe de...only dono others'll remember dis person o nt..o jus gt others reasons....Susan told me sumtin on de phone yesterday when at aini's place...me was thinkin bout sumtin similar all de tym...she said she getting close wif a fren..but she felt she's having sum distance wif another fren le... i'm wornderin is dis wat we learn from Bible...Father Jesus...dats wat we call take n give?? i'm still wondering...lolz..k...gt work 2 do...con't soon..kekekekez...attaz...-mcpooh
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 10:13 午前
aiyo aiyo....y de socity now so luan de??? jilat lah..wanna go out n hav sum fun oso need so many worried n so mahuan de...do we hav a really peaceful place in dis world?? 2 my answer is NO~!!!! NO NO NO n NO~!!!! its nt safe coz no ppl dare 2 tel de news coz dey scare no ppl dare 2 visit dat place anymore...coz dey wanna giv ppl good image about dat place...dey want earn $$$...criminals r everywhere... ppl r bad everywhere...devil r spreading more evil gens in2 poor pplz...damn lah...ai...how i wish i can b lyk God did b4 long long tymz ago...flood de world n kill all de bad guys n ppl...renew de world wif good...but devil r oways here 2 make kacau...n wif out bad i noe we cant apperciate wat cal happiness n good life we had now... war r goin on from tymz 2 tymz...more n more celaka ppl born each day....our brain were polluted wif all dis bad things...no matter how we prevent oso no use...y?? coz there oways a new way n idea 2 do more bad things....new technology were invented each days...ppl miss-use our own smartness n genious...dumb ppl jus non stop doin bad things n makin da poor one's fear....damn lah...no fun lah lyk dis...jilat punya devil....pui lah~!!! PUI PUI PUI~!!!yaya...i nv wanna blame others 4 sumtin when sumtin happen...but now let me blame 4 once lah...i feel so mad here....nt my fault oso wanna blame myself meh?? impossible de bah~!!!other things happenin around me i can blame meself coz i noe...there oways a plce 4 me 2 do beta..but nt dis tym~!!!i really bad at many things...i mad at y dad cant giv my mom a Y cromozon n born me as a guy??? i mad y gal oways been a vicitm...oso sam human bah..only gt hill on de chest n no tube 2 pee at de pivrite part....i mad y my mom control me lyk hell...jus a trip wif frenz ma...jus a nite stay over...can do wat wor?? no bf oso....aiduh...apa lah~!!!!!!
lolz....now jus heard Gary Chao de "GU Niang"...my mood straigh away change...lolz..y oo?? coz i think of Gary n Aries...lolz...Wei lun de fren...OMG...damn lyk lah..lolz..think of dat day tok wif him n kacau him..lolz...from no fren until now gt tok..lolz..i gt so many fren lyk start from a small conversation until sum1 i noe..lolz..
ok ok back 2 my geramji mood...aiyo...y so oo??? if gt ah boy den mama should hav trust ah boy den can put lots of heart ar...but 2 bad lah...wif my look don say ah boy lah...ah pui see me oso run..lolz..dats y i don dare put my pic in dis profile pic...kakakzz.....don blame oo...coz me look 2 scary so no pic 2 let ppl see...i don ppl once see my pic...nt yet read my blog oledi jump out from my page...lolz....
ok la....wanna start workin again....arond 3 'll leave hom n go tuition..kakakz....so nicy leh...kekekez....hope gt tym n go see Coco..heehz...tatatz....*stopin...*
Oii stop typin liao..kakakzz....*sot chor*~!!!
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 1:34 午後
OMG OMG....i really had passed my econ ar~!!! lolz....
i knew de result yesterday...hhehz...so me goin 2 degree...hehez..
OMG i really need pia harder den b4 lo...aiduh....but anyway KAMPADEH kenji~!!!
k...gtg 2 edit my blog skin..hehehz..tataz...=P..
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 12:24 午後
2day...bored again...in office..em..gt little things 2 do la...but still bored lo...guess wat i drew a plan 2day...yea..keekz...1st tym i drew from a sctach...me mummy no object bout dat drawin..mean i had improve my drawing skills..kekekz...but still lah..me wanna rest n enjoy...don wanna work...hope dat big sista fast fast back from vacation den i can fast fast hav my holiday again..kekekz...
aiyo..still worried lah...my econ ar..dono pass o fail...oso had no idea when de result out...probally dis week lo...dis 2 days...dono when lo..hope can call sum1 help me see o check ar...o sum1 can tel me bout it...realy hope can pass lah..i really wanna study graphic design n web paging...aiyo...i nv hope sumtin so much de eh...dim gai dis tym leh??
last nite me 9 sumtin go ong ong lo...2 tired lo..oso nth 2 do..lz on9 n check mail n chat oso..so jus went 2 bed early n rest...sleep more den 8 hours last nite..lolz..but dis mornin still feel tired la...mayb really nt enuf if wanna add up from pass few days...sorry 4 susan coz monday we oledi said wanna hav lunch 2gather..but me mummy want me work so knt hav lunch wif her lo...Susan sorry oo...
workin at here nt bad lah..can learn many things..n can b more relax den others job...lolz...still gt many funny n crazy workers here...as u can see dis is a manufaturing company which built n made custom made stailess steel equipment and things..so dey hav more male wokers...sure gt a few nice lookin de lo...but most is funny lah...lyk a simple tool dey cal it Rambo...lolz..wat rambo?? yea..dats wat dey told me everytym i asked dem wat izzit as i need 2 recorded it down 4 stock checkin...den other good uncle dey told me its a grinder 2 polish steels nt wat rambo thingy...lolz...den sumtin 4 tailin touch...dey called it as "Batu" means rock o stone in malay..lolz..1st i dono de..den da clerk sista told me dats wat dey call..lolz...n a funny things is tungsten rod..dey called it as " Ang ge jiam"(red tooth neddle)...lolz...funny huh?? many tym i dono wat dey tryin 2 tel...but others 'll teach me de factory language n learn from dem...hehehz...
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 1:48 午後
damn tired now... so so so so so sleepy... but..guess wat?? me still workin eh...yea.. i had resited my econ paper dis mornin..but my mom called me around aftanoon n asked me cum n type sumtin...4 de company...but acuatlly is a trap~!!! damn it..i cam n i cant walk away afta i done my typin...ai... i din sleep well last nite..coz had dream n dono y jus hard 2 sleep...den woke up at 5 am 2 study my econ...read read read...try 2 memories n read all de notes i note 4 previous test... ofcoz lah..in such short tym who can read so much...den around 7 i hav my breakfast n rest n gt ready 4 sch....at 9 exam start... den afta an hour n 40 mins i done my paper n cam out from de "hell"...but de feelin wasn't relife but more worry den b4..i so scare i 'll fail again...de objective and t & f part i had no confident..coz i dono..i nt sure wat i had done..i jus 'bang bang bang' n jus chin chai do lo...den final part de eassay de...em... almost 10 marks fly lo..coz 4gt de steps n did nt study dat part....so lyk dis lo...aiyo...100% marks ar..dono can gt 50% ma....if can good lah..i really dono lah...so so scare lah... i nv so scare bout any paper de lah...OMG ><|||||||.....
honestly oo...me 2moro really don wanna cum n work..if can 2nite i make myself sick den no need cum n work...really tired now..i wanna rest but i cant...i can rest in a secret place..but damn noisy lah dat place...who can rest in dat hell place...me want go home n ong ong~!!!!!! but.... mian le bah...bu ke neng de...ai... zhen chan~!!! dis holiday i din really gt enuf rest .... afta exam i straight work...den resit paper...OT again...den now work again...oii..mana rest tym?? ku dah mati kalau sik da rest...betul ni~! ppl oways complain me din rest...but da truth is i cant rest..coz i don hav de tym 2 enjoy my rest~!!!
ok ok..change topic...but things happenin around me...em..finally thur is back from KL lo...but he still want me help look afta his "wife" turtle...so nvm lo..hehehz...ez job bah..=P... coz he need stury 4 his resit paper lah...pity him.. i was callin him 2 join multimedia..lolz....dono y leh..mayb i need a company in multimedia ...o jus promoting n asking ppl 2 join multimedia..lolz..since he good in it..so nvm de lah..kakakz....den ic leh..me nt sure wor...but i heard he had made his decision...em...no matter wat's his decision sure i support de..coz as a fren i don wanna see his in sadness...i hope he's happy wif his new decision n hav a happy life...=)..sam here...waiting 4 my new result...if sucess den continue my challenging road in swinbure..if nt sucess den 'll change my road n hav a new life...dats life rite?? there's oways lots of tyms need us 2 make choices n take diff road in diff tymz...God gav us so many chance...only we din relise it...many ppl blame God 4 nt givin any chance 2 dem..but He did ...only we din see our surounding kfully...even sumtymz we'll complain bout sumtin..but actually dats our chance givin by God only we dono de...pray hard n God 'll listen 2 ya...n giv wat u want....
now i really hope gt chance 2 hav enuf rest lah..coz i really really tired... nt feelin well oso... y sick har? coz i din take good k of myself durin exam n workin hours...oways coz of result gt moody den din drink n eat...o even sleep less...so lyk dis lo...tiam bo?? kakakz... ham gai me~!!! but i dono lah...nt me want de..me tryin liao..
ok la...gtg n get bored... i jus tok 2 my mom n asked her 2 givg me leave early..coz i noe in dis condition i cant drive well..since i almost had 3 accident dis mornin...den i wanna leave b4 de damn heavy jams start..hehehz...
ok la..tataz...de end of my story....
kesian punya( pity ),
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 4:21 午後
guess wat? i fail my econ again...YEA~!!! AGAIN~!!!damn huh??
ai... dis tym Maggie told me dat i can resit it...coz its my final chance 2 pass it n go degree...Thanks swinbure registra board let me sit 4 it...i gotta study hard lyk hell 2 pass it dis tym... oh ya bout other 3 sub..yeap i passed it..but nt econ..so damn lah...i still though i'll fail math but y econ?? ai... i blame myself 4 being so dumb n so baka in econ lo.... all my fren had pass all sub...but nt me...ai..i really so useless lah...ppl cn pass it y cant i??
so...afta 2day i'll continue focus on my econ study lo...until da day i sit 4 my test...gotta read econ 4 days n nite...every sec n every min n everyday until da day had da test.....=).. luckly i gt Denis 2 support me now..if nt i dono wat 'll i b now...Denis..thanks 4 givin me support when i need it..thanks so much oo...i lov ya...kokou...thanks so much 2..=')..i lov ya..da person i wanna thank most is Ai Ni...gal..u had help me so much..sorry 4 makin u disappointed again...i really sorry..i din mean it de...but i promise i'll study extra hard dis tym coz i wanna study degree...i don wanna stop study jus lyk dis..coz i had been trough so much i don wanna stop lyk dis..as i said b4 i don ppl look down on me..n wanna make kokou proud...make me mama proud...ai..but how? i had no where 2 go.. now i only can think of a way...
my tunnel is dark again...2 dim light is wif me now...one is kokou n another is Denis...1 dim light(kokou) been accompany me...n i saw a new light wif ...which is Denis...hehez... i dono when 'll dis light gone off lyk pass few been happen...i hope it'll nt gone off so fast o never gone off...
ok la..gtg back 2 work le...c ya all..tataz
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 1:40 午後
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over newand the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you throughI wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hearI've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over newand the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is youI've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 6:22 午後
finally i made my blogger look nicer..lolz..but leh..i think stilll need add many things 2 make it look nicer wor..kakakaz..
ok la...goin home lo..workin tym dah habis..kakakz...bagusnya~!!!
k..dah ok...nak balik pun..tataz..blog again soon in here...
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 6:18 午後
Ello ...me jus start...so nth much 2 says..hehehz..jus wanna try..... c ya all..tatatz..
posted by Kenji Koyama @ 9:03 午後